The external pain that has been a real annoyance is at a 1. My pelvic floor muscles have been working overtime, but there has been improvement there to. I went to see my counselor, whom questioned the jump from nothing to what happened on Sunday. I’ve pondered that one too, but I trust the PT. I know that I experienced pain, but maybe being able to give informational feedback will help.
It goes against everything I’ve read though. If you experience pain, stop because you don’t want your body to memorize that, but she hasn’t used the dilators. Her process is very different. I tried the dilators and kept having back and forth progress between the first and second dilator. I was able to wear a tampon for 3 1/2 hours during my last period. That has to account for something.
So I have got to trust my gut. I was also thinking and pondering a center up in New York. I made a post on a group that I’m sure is connected to this center. I’ve sort of have gotten a feeling it’s like an advertisement to this center, but oh well. Places do need to get their name out there, although I think this place is well known by many with Vaginismus.
I’ve been bouncing back and forth about calling. I’ve called in the past and was told that due to my past I couldn’t be a candidate for the 2 week program. That would be all I would be able to afford or possibly afford. Welll when I made a couple of posts about a month back on my dealing with my inability to have kids or my fears of never having kids. I got an e-mail to call them. I told them I had and said what they told me. The person basically said, call and we can try to rethink this.
So now my husband and I are in a debate. I would like to call, but he thinks that its not the right idea. He wants to wait the PT out. Which I can do. I posted recently on the website at some strange hour, a question about or a recommendation on dealing with the pain. Ironically I got deleted and blocked from the group. I know because my husband basically told me the groups still up. Hey it helped me with a decision about my therapy. I’m sticking with the PT. If asking about pain and recommendations on dealing with it after post sex is inappropriate on a vaginismus group. I have no clue where else I can ask.
I told my counselor about that. He said forget the group, which is done and forget ever calling that person. Done. I don’t need a rush job getting done. Besides I heard its expensive. Not in the budget.
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