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{May 15, 2011}   Vaginismis and swimming

Frustration is what I feel. I hate feeling like this problem controls my life. I constantly fight and when I do fight I pay. I got my period this week and my 7 month old son had his first swimming lesson. It is a parent-child lesson. This means a tampon is necessary. After 20 min of forcing it in, and a tear-filled face I got it in. I then dcided I couldn’t do it, only to discover it got stuck. So I went to the lesson with percoset in me. It took 5 min to get it out in the shower. I am in severe pain and just frustrated.
I will be calling my old PT to see about an appointment. I refuse to let this beat me.

After careful thought and reflection, and a phone contact to the place. I’m going to continue my trips on certain weekends out of town to see the physical therapist that I have been seeing for some time now. The new PT only has 2 days that she works as late as 4:00 and its not in Harrisburg. Its in Mechanicsburg and really makes it hard for me to continue breastfeeding. After much thought and reflection, I am realizing that this situation isn’t necessarily in the cards. Unfortunately, because it would have been ideal. So I’m going to be setting up an appointment with the person whom I’ve been going to and begin the path to recovery. I appreciate the assistance, but it just doesn’t seem like it is going to work out.

et cetera